I’ve dealt with a lot of crap throughout my 18 years of living. Funny, I thought it would be a breeze till I reached “adulthood”. Clearly I was wrong. Cancer, Illness, disappointment, depression, death, and lots of other super fun things filled my years. But I mean everyone has a battle right? So what do we do with this crap we call life?
We find a reason to live. For me this was found in my worth in Jesus Christ. If you know me you know that I believe this wholeheartedly. I know many people are cautious about Jesus or don’t really know what it looks like to have a relationship with Him. They go to church and check it off their to do list then move on with their lives. But I’m writing this to tell you (all 5 of my followers) that there’s something more out there. Life sucks, I’m never going to say it doesn’t. BUT life with the Lord is good and filled with joy amidst tough times.
Knowing the Lord has brought me immesausurable peace and joy in my hardest times. I struggled very hard with these things before I really pursed Jesus. I would take out my bitterness on my family. My freshman year I was tired of my friends, I was tired of my life, and I was angry and mean to anyone who got close to me. I built a barrier up between people because I didn’t want to get too close to someone who would just leave me again. But I began going to church more and more that year. I found community with a strong group of girls who helped me knock down my walls. I found what it looked like to pursue the Lord fully.
Then life hit me like a ton of bricks my junior year. This is something many people don’t understand. They assume once you’re a believer your life will be smooth sailing. THE STORMS NEVER STOP, PEOPLE. No matter what, life will always be hard because it is swarmed with sin. Every believer still struggles. But the Lord equips them with strength they would never have on their own. I faced some grueling things I would never wish upon someone else. However, I’m thankful for my trials because they taught me what it truly looked like to depend on the Lord for everything. This is what I want for everyone I know. I want them to know how much Jesus loves us. How much he cares for us. And that He isn’t just some foolish myth of lovey dovey mush. He is real. He is alive. And he is GOOD.
So my advice is to seek the Lord if you aren’t already. And if you are, never stop. He brought me through some incredibly difficult things and I know I’m not the only high schooler, or human in general, going through rough times. The only way I survived, literally, was because of Jesus Christ. So I hope you find that one day. Because he truly is the only reason to live.